Making complete (non)sense out of chaos

I fail to put my finger on the exact moment it happened but now that it's taken over the exact moment is the least of my worries. Bedlam has come to rest for awhile...at least that makes one of us. This weekend I experienced little sleep, a trend that has been haunting me this past bit as it really does nothing for my existing issues of/with sleep. As I type this, the reality that I have had 2 hours of sleep in the past 36 hours (and counting) is starting to sink in. True, I have become somewhat more nocturnal during this past month and a half or so. But equally true is the fact that life seems to be moving at an increasingly faster rate with which I cannot compete. The question that has resided and rattled and rolled around in my gray matter as of late is whether I am to continue to "roll with the punches" or if I strive and struggle to regain control. True, I may not be experiencing my best thought processes right now but if all I can do at the moment is think than think is what I will do. I desire to do what I am able to, not what is easy, but sometimes it's hard to tell one from the other. Lord, have mercy on this, Your tired child.