Some sweet soul

Well, my window has been fixed and my birth certificate, drivers license, and care card have all been applied for. Emotional scaring...still there. But I can tell that people are praying for me because I've experienced very small moments of peace that are beyond my comprehension. They don't last long and there hasn't been many of them but they are there none the less.

And some sweet soul left me a bunch of tulips on my front seat after Emerge on Monday night. I don't know who did it (I guess that might have been the point since I even tried to investigate...) but I was so touched that someone had thought of me like that and I am so thankful that they did it. If you did it and you're reading this: From my heart of hearts, thank you.

I'm anxiously waiting for the day God provides for me in the car department. Yes, He has provided me with finances to continue fixing the beast known as Ruth (a.k.a. my Tracker) but, truth be told, I've been praying for a free car. I don't know exactly how this might happen so I guess it's a good thing that I don't run the universe. Heck, most days I can't even run my life! But all things considered, I know that He has provided and will continue to. Whether He keeps allowing me to fix my car or He finds a free one for me, I'm ready and willing for the next leg of this journey. I am blessed to be a witness.

Thank you loser

This is a public thank you/flogging for the low-life loser who threw a rock through my driverside window and shattered the entire thing at Cliff Park today. An extra special thank you for obviously watching me when I parked so you'd know just where I was (albeit stupidly) hiding my purse.

It was awesome that you charged $108 and some change at the Webster's Corner corner store. Even more thrilling was the way you charged $500 at the Esso at 248th and Dewdney buying 5 $100 Keno tickets. Please, let's be friends so you can teach me how to be as big of a loser as you. Seriously...Keno tickets??!!! The pinacle has to be the fact that you were on digital serveillance and, due to my super-sleuthing skills, the tapes are being e-mailed to the RCMP as we speak. My kudos to Mastercard who so kindly informed me of, specifically, where you had charged and for the fraud department who noticed that this was not usual and tried calling my house to check it out. A heartfelt thank you for being fantastic and on the ball (I'm serious about this thank you).

I'm not sure why you're such an angry and unintelligent person or why you would do this to me. Was it the fact that I was carrying a few thousand things in my arms and trying to ensure that the child I was with would not be run over and it was so obvious that my multi-tasking skills were nearing their limit so I might not notice? Did it look like me and the super handsome 7-year-old I was with were way too happy and having too much fun singing along with Dave Matthews cover of Time of The Season and you just couldn't stand it because you're a miserable human being?

Well, you should know that after the super handsome 7-year-old, literally, played the best soccer game of his life our celebration on the way back to my car was cut short as I tried to clean up glass and get my parents to cancel my credit and bank cards and figure out what to do. And how after the chaos had died down I looked over at him and my heart broke because he was crying and when I picked him up to give him a cuddle how he sobbed into my shoulder. He asked "who did this to our car?" and I had to tell him that "awful people" had done this. On the way to McDonald's, for the lunch he so deserved, he told me that the car was sad because it had no window. I don't think his super-cool Happy Meal toy will make up for this one.

I'm so exhausted right now. I've been running all over town, phoning more people than I cared to and telling them exactly the same information. It's such a long process-driver's license, birth certificate, carecard, gym membership, university alumni card, bank card, credit card, Serving It Right certificate, Petro Points card. Oh, and that money order for my student loan...I'm sure the government will be super understanding of the fact that you suck. And the $20 in my wallet...please enjoy dinner out (I hope you get salmonella). I had salmonella once and thought I was going to throw-up my intestines...I hope you actually do. I won't lie, I miss the monetary things that you took from me, those things that I worked so hard for, and it worries me. But what I miss most is the time of joy that you robbed from me and that 7-year-old boy, the most handsome and coolest boy I know. It's too bad we both had to find out how much some people suck today.

And now for something completely different

So, I was thinking the other day (that's usually what gets me in trouble) and, although life keeps me on my toes constantly, I thought that life could be even more interesting if more things spontaneously combusted. Not that many things nowadays actually do. Today I brought my Tracker in (at 8am on my day off) to get the heatercore fixed. I asked my trusty mechanic if he wouldn't mind "accidently" catching my car on fire. We shared a mutual guffaw but I could tell that, in our heart of hearts, we are on the same page. I think it'd be great if your car (more specifically, mine) spontaneously combusted and insurance covered it.

There are many more things that I think would be fabulous in a spontaneous combustion setting. Some for entirely selfish reasons (the entire crowd at a Dave Matthews concert). Some for sheer entertainment (a slurpee "Whew! I didn't know it was that hot out!" or a coffee "I asked for extra hot but this is just ridiculous!"). What would you guys like to see spontaneouly combust? (Please, no spontaneously combusting people...we've all thought it...it's kind of getting old now:).

Welcome wee one!

Congratulations to Myron and Becky who welcomed the incredibly gorgeous Charlotte Jane into the world on Monday, January 9 2006 at 5:14 am! You can see her if you visit their site to the right (Myron&Becky&BabyCharlotte). Blessings to you Myron and Becky as you start this new journey with Charlotte. May God be in every detail.

The Ghetto Coup

So today I figured out why my car has been going through so much antifreeze (antiboil if you're of the American sort). I should have known. I think it's the second, or maybe third time, it's happened. My heater core is gone. Adding up my car expenses of the last month makes my head swim. Set of new tires ($500), re-built starter ($250+ the towing bill), and now the heater core (estimated $400, hoping the price hasn't gone up over the last couple of years).

I'm in a little shock but trying to hang onto the mindset of being thankful to God that I still have a car that works. To be thankful in the midst of trials is not something one is born with...it is something one has to develop. Thankfulness, like love, is a choice. You don't always "feel" it but you can always choose it. I'm struggling right now because in the midst of all this going on I endeavor to find and acknowlege the ways God is blessing me but in my weak flesh I can get so side-tracked by these eternally insignificant happens. Today I will choose to be thankful for the breathe I have been granted today when so many have ceased to be. I will choose to be thankful for my car because many people around my town have to ride stolen bicycles. I am thankful for the blessings of relationships with my family and my friends. And I am ever thankful for the God who loves me and is faithful to me beyond measure or reason. Lord fortify me and make me strong in spirit.

Well, I suppose it's overdue but here it is just the same:

Happy New Year!!!

Hope you rang it in safely and the rest of it is a blessed and joyful one for you all.